What IF?

What if?
What if we really believed?
What if we really believe that God had a purpose for our life?
 If we truly lived out His plan? Oh man! Can you imagine?!!?

What if we wholeheartedly believed that we were uniquely, specifically
made and placed in our space for such a time as this?

What if every morning we asked, 'What is God saying and what am I going to do about it?"
If I saw my day through His eyes? If I loved fully, no compromise--not weighing the pros and cons.
from the sun’s dawns to the night's skies, living from the outpouring of His grace,
making space for living face-to-face.

What if?
 What if we wholeheartedly believed that we were uniquely, specifically
 made and placed in our space for such a time as this?

What if we brought Him with us where we already work and live and play, each day,
allowing him to be OUR way, OUR truth, OUR life? What if?

What if we listened to understand, offered a hand, erased that line in the sand--for something even
greater that He has planned?
What if we fixed our eyes on Jesus?
What if we pursued justice?
What if we were courageous and strong...and we sang one song,
that we belong--to each other, my sisters and brothers.

What if?
What if we whole heartedly believed that we were uniquely, specifically
 made and placed in our space for such a time as this?

What if we had a posture of gratefulness? What if we choose to see wonder in creation,
in a smile and in a leaf...walking through the painful beautiful space of grief...with God's everlasting
 hope as our guide, and we joyfully invited all others inside to see that they are too...

Uniquely, specifically, made and placed in our space for such a time as this?

 What if?

What if we cared for the orphan, the widow, prisoner and stranger, released from our fears of danger.
To step out into the unknown...because we are known, by He who is on the throne.


What if we wholeheartedly believed

that we were uniquely, specifically

made and placed in our space

for such a time as this?


What if we moved from understanding to belief, to faith in action, displaying just a fraction of holy discontent...let us mourn, let us lament.
Knowing that the valleys are not the dream deferred,
But the dream defined. For God changes things, by first changing us.

And because,
Sometimes late at night, you just have to write,
To get things off your chest, so you can lay down and rest.
Because real rest for your soul only comes from The One who's in control.

And like Ms. Shirer states, we can't land our own plane,
We gotta talk to the control tower, that's our power.
We gotta get in that prayer lane.

Armor activation she says,
 On our knees daily for that helmet of salvation.
 The King of all creation, the Maker of the birds and the trees gifting me with truth in a belt,
"Um, yes please!" And I will stand firm with that buckled 'round my waist,
 Because what a waste that would be, choosing not to fly free,
 In the freedom that is found when walking on holy ground,
 With the gospel of peace in our shoes, whether in toms or in keens, we've got nothing to lose.

See, we're fighting in this war whether we see it or not,
So I'll get that breastplate on, sword in my hand, take a stand, and hold firm that faith shield like   we're taught.

And like my girl Jena so eloquently reminded me back a few weeks,
 Of those truth-filled words CS Lewis speaks,
 There is NO neutral ground on this universe found,
 For every square inch, second, minute and hour God claims for his kingdom,
 The enemy comes to devour.
That master illusionist with his arrows a flame,
See, I'm on to your game. You use tricks and deception, distraction and disguise,
But my God's truth shines a spotlight on your lies.

See His word is a light unto my path,
It's just simply math...the Trinity, plus me, equals for-ever free,
Like the "Jesus freak" doodled on my junior high folder,
But I've fallen more deeply in love since I've grown older,

With the Prince of Peace, my King of Kings,
 for whom my soul sings.
 I sing because I'm happy, yes!
 I sing because I'm free.
 I sing because I'm confident, He's won the victory.

So, step out soldier, and stand tall.
He's got your trust fall. For He knows the plans He has for you,
To give you hope and a future with no harm, as we stand arm to arm fervent,
Battling daily to be His good and faithful servant.

By Angela Scalise

My Refuge, My Strength

     Does it ever feel like the trials in your life are going to crush you? Events that make you want to run away from everyone and everything; to hide among a crowd where you are unknown, or find isolation where no one can see your pain and you can cry your heart out. That was me yesterday, last week, last month and even last fall. All of a sudden I found my life, which seemed in line and on track in God’s will, crumbling before me. The death of my grandmother in November, the rock, and matriarch of my family ripped apart my heart. In witnessing her struggle to trust God in her death, clinging to every last breath, I also found myself in my own battle with trust. A battle to trust God is in control. A battle to trust God loves me and is good. A battle to trust God to redeem and heal my heart. Trusting God is my beautiful fight. Through the last few months, I have wanted to retreat from everything; from my family, from leading within church, from friends, from any sort of focus on anything outside of myself, my needs, my dreams and goals, my pain. Then yesterday while leading other women in their journey to trust God, He demonstrated His love for me by allowing me to truly experience how to trust Him, depend on Him and seek refuge in His arms.

     It’s not like God just told me what to do, I am learning He is a teacher of experience. His gentle hand was guiding me the whole way with challenges He knew I could and would lean into after I got over my own self and my own pride and my own sinful temptation to seek comfort and others’ approval. What I wanted to do was run, pack my bags and go. Check out. Seek refuge in my own home, with my own children and husband where I feel absolutely safe to be me. But I ended up in a public restroom. Sitting in a stall trying to muster up my own strength and gather my emotions and broken pieces that had shattered to the floor. Fighting the urge to run. I felt so weak. God reminded me of Psalm 91 which I actually read and processed in my journal that morning. When I read this Psalm just hours before my bathroom retreat and noticed all of the specific nouns describing God like “refuge” and “fortress”. I noticed all the action ascribed to God like “rescue” and “protect”. Glowering, I reread my part, the steps God was calling me to words like “trust” and “call” on God. Then I rewrote the psalm replacing all the pronouns to place myself as the author, not David, that had written the Psalm. At this point, I am in battle, distrusting that this Psalm is even for me. God knew what He was doing though as He spoke so tenderly to my heart through His word. He had already gone before me, preparing the way for me to walk in His light later in the day. To trust Him. To bring glory to His name.

“Because you love me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue you; I will protect you, for you acknowledge my name. You will call on me, and I will answer you.” Psalm 91:14-15 (emphasis mine)

     Tears fell to the tile floor in the bathroom.  I was resistant to carrying out what I had been called to, unsure how to follow His lead when I felt so weak. I didn’t want my weakness exposed in fear of what others might think. God reminded me of 2 Corinthians 12:9 (and confirmed it through more than one person that morning), “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” So I gathered myself together with a little bit of confidence, not in myself, but in my God, and walked out of the bathroom, obediently stepping into what He has called me to do. Of course, I didn’t step out of the bathroom onto cloud 9, filled with joy, peace, and happiness. Oh no, I continued to cry, but instead of packing my bags and leaving, I pressed in. Pressed into the scripture placed on my heart.  Pressed into the hearts surrounding me desperate to also trust God. Pressed into what God had for me in these moments; that He is my refuge, my strength, in whom I trust. Glory to God in the Highest.

Blessings,

Tami Ingalls

Alpha

You can yell, you can scream, you can mumble in the dark,
 With a silent whisper at work, with your kids at the park,
 Abba Father--
Just waits. If you're singing on your mountaintop or drowning in the valley,

 Hands held, circled up at God's table,
Blessed because we're able, to meet here together to say these words out loud,
Safe and secure, sharing our story.
The questions are our journey.

We look up from our blue seat to see we're at Jesus' feet,
We follow, we seek: week to week, finding our way,
 Our alpha is today.
HE is THE way.
 Every morning God's graces are new--for me, for you, for all who except,
For all who believe. Simply receive.
 All is not lost. Terra incognita, but I am known.
 He says be still and know. Be still and know.

Even with arms crossed, eyes closed, feeling sad, confused, even angry,
 Those who are further down the path and others just testing the waters,
 Glancing shyly up to their heavenly father.
 For in His light, we see light--we are His delight and we delight in Him too,
For prayer activates peace. Sweet release.

Vulnerable, intimate conversation.
He needs no polish quotation, no preplanned alliteration,
 makes no notation of your denomination
Declare celebration. Adoration for the source of our salvation.
Adoni--
Thy kingdom come,Thy will be done.
 The way you taught us to pray,
 Yesterday, today and forever. Amen.
 YOURS is the power and the glory. Mandatory for my story.


In Him,
Angela Scalise

Idols of the Heart

     The Bible is such a fascinating book, so much history, so many incredible and true stories, all woven together to tell the same story of redemption. I know some think that the Bible is outdated or irrelevant to today. I disagree. Many times it feels like the words on these pages are written exactly for me, in this very stage of my life in 2017. One thing I know that hasn’t changed: the same sin that entered the world in Genesis 3 is rampant in you and me today. The same sickness in all of our hearts from the very beginning. Every single one of us. The same desire we all have to be our own gods, really (wrongly) believing deep inside that we know better how to do this life than God. It’s Idolatry, and it’s just as much a part of the fabric of you and me today as it was thousands of years ago in the garden of Eden.
     What may come to mind when you think of Idolatry is the story in Exodus where the Israelites built a golden calf to worship, rather than the one true God, to go before them, to give them the peace of mind and security they wanted. Yes, that was idolatry. Yes there is still this type of physical idol worship in the world today. But what I’d like to dig into is the idols that live inside our hearts, ALL of our hearts. Fast forward to the prophet Ezekiel, and in Ezekiel 14:3, God says about the elders of Israel, ‘These men have set up their idols in their hearts and put wicked stumbling blocks before their faces.’ They were once again turning away from God to get what they wanted. We don’t know exactly what their idols were, but we know that they were ‘stumbling blocks’ in their hearts and lives, separating them from God. Timothy Keller writes in the book Counterfeit Gods, ‘(An idol) is anything more important to you than God, anything that absorbs your heart and imagination more than God, anything you seek to give you what only God can give.’ Ouch. So this means even really good things like family and children. Good things that we have made into ultimate things. This means things like success, romance, money, fitness, physical beauty, entertainment, perfectionism...and the list goes on forever. It could be anything that you desire more than God in your heart. You might never say out loud that this is true, but you know where your true loyalty lies in the deepest places inside of you.
      A quick Google search says, a desire is ‘a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.’ What do you desire deep inside your heart? To be loved or respected or admired or wanted? To be successful? To feel secure? To just...feel...something? Being the broken people that we are, we often turn to sin in order to get these desires met. When I say ‘sins,’ I don’t just mean actions, but also words and thoughts that are not aligned with God’s truth. Every sin can be traced back to an idol that is in our hearts; there is some desire in our hearts that we want more than pleasing God.
     For me personally, I have many examples of this. I can think of times in my teen years when I turned to sin to achieve ‘approval of man’ whether it was through relationships or striving for some image of beauty or popularity I wanted to uphold. I had made approval and beauty and popularity my idols. I still struggle with these at times today. I also struggled with making my relationships my source of happiness, my gods. In my early 20s, when my husband and I were dating, I allowed how he was treating me to decide my happiness. I put him on a pedestal and gave him the job to make me happy. As we all know, if you put your sole trust in a person, they will always fail you. God never will. God is the only one who can fulfill our innermost desires for love and acceptance. God loves me (and you) infinitely more than any person ever could. After all, He made me. He knit me together in my mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13).
     Currently, among many, I struggle with a combination of the idols ‘ease of life’ and ‘self.’ The truth is, I want an easy life. I want things to go my way all the time. I want to have obedient children. I want a good night’s sleep every night. I want to be on time to everything. I want my husband to spend his free time in ways that benefit me. I want peace and quiet. I don’t like my plans interrupted. An example of this is when my kids are fighting while I’m trying to complete a task; I get very annoyed. Many times I turn to raising my voice at them (anger that is unrighteous is a sin) in order to meet my desire to do what I want to do. When I really think about it, when I raise my voice in anger, it is like I am a 2 year old throwing a tantrum for not getting my way. It’s all about me in those moments, not putting others before myself as God calls us to do. Not loving them more than me. It comes down to pride. Pride is a gross thing to see in yourself. It is the opposite of the humility that Jesus showed. I see it in myself most every time that I lose my cool with my loved ones. Yuck. And why do I have these expectations that things should go my way? After all, an ‘ease of life’ is not what God tells us we will get. In fact, He tells us this life will be hard (John 16:33). And amazingly, through that hardness, He promises to use it ALL for my good and His glory (Romans 8:28). He doesn’t want me to have an easy life where I get everything I want. He wants me to be more like Him, and that doesn’t come from an easy breezy life. It comes from trials and challenges and tears. The struggle is where we grow. I know this firsthand, and I’m sure many of you do too. The truth is that God is not interested in making me happy, but making me Holy. And only He knows how to do that. I do not know better than Him. He knows exactly what I need and will provide it at the perfect time. He promises that He has given me everything I need for life and Godliness (2 Peter 1:3).

Do I believe what He says? 

     Ladies, I could go on and on about the idols I struggle with. But what about you? And how do we move forward? First, we identify what we are worshiping and seeking fulfillment in that isn’t God. Ask yourself these kinds of questions to try to identify the ‘gods’ of your heart...Where do my thoughts tend to go? How do I spend my money? How do I respond to frustrated plans and hopes? What makes me respond most emotionally? What do I complain about? What do I really want in life? Fill in the statement, I could be really happy if I only ____.  Next, we must repent of this and ask God to forgive us for desiring these things more than Him. We repent of the sins in words, thoughts and actions that we turned to in order to meet these desires. And He forgives! If the idol is a good thing, like our children, we need to work to put that good thing in it’s rightful place. We need to love God more. Yes mamas, we must love God more than our children. The ones we love so much that it hurts. And finally, we must turn to God. We remind ourselves of His promises and who He is. Our Father. Our Comfort. Our Peace. Our security. He is enough. We study His word. We memorize it. We pray for strength to put Him first. We share our struggles with others to keep us accountable. Timothy Keller sums it up well to say ‘the only way to free ourselves from the destructive influence of counterfeit gods is to turn back to the true one. The living God, who revealed himself both at Mount Sinai and on the Cross, is the only Lord who, if you find him, can truly fulfill you, and if you fail him, can truly forgive you.’ Ladies, we must seek to replace (not just remove) these idols of our hearts with the one and only true God. For He alone is worthy of our praise.


In Him,

Kristi Brooks

Sent

A while back our women's ministry worked through The Armor of God study by Priscilla Shirer. During that time the Holy Spirit gave me these words to pray:


You haven't sent me out with            
a wand of wishful thinking,
a whip of anger,
a club of stubborn argument,
a pen of intellect,
a map of self-direction,
or a velvet rope of feminine persuasion.

But, you've equipped me with the Sword of Your Spirit through Your word--a sword that is able to lead me, empower me, and bring me home to You in victory.

Help me put down the weapons of my own making and take up Your powerful sword--the sword of a warrior fighting for Your interests. In Jesus' name, Amen


Blessings,
Sue Belshe

Word of the Year

Time

- a point of time as measured in hours and minutes past midnight or noon.
- plan, schedule or arrange when (something) should happen or be done.
- the system of those sequential relations that any event has to any other, past, present,  
   or future; indefinite and continuous duration regarded as that in which events
   succeed one another.

Last Fall when we were presented with the question at Women Unplugged, "What is one of the most meaningful gifts you've ever given or been given?", I didn't have an answer. As I left Heartland that morning, I was still pondering the question. As I did, I began to feel ungrateful. I have received many beautiful and meaningful gifts over the years; jewelry that was purchased with purpose and meaning, Mud Pie dishes that friends and family have given toward my dish collection "addiction", and lots of others. All very meaningful.

As the day went on, I realized, however, the most meaningful gift for me was and is TIME. My daughters know one thing I treasure is coffee or lunch out with friends. Time away from life's demands, just to talk, share, pray, over a good cup of coffee or meal.

Time with my Mom, who lives in Montana. Time with family and friends that still live in Montana. When I travel back, I make sure I contact everyone to set up a time to get together, just so we can have a little time to reconnect.

After our last class reunion, my girlfriends and I decided we needed to get together more often than every 10 years. We discussed the fact that we had lost several friends to cancer and other situations, and recognized time is priceless. We have since met every summer, rotating to each other's homes/cities, enjoying each other's company while we just be.

And after almost 30 years of marriage, time with my husband. We were great at doing date night before we had our girls. Once they were born, we dedicated every free moment to them. Having fought infertility, we were willing and ready to spend all of our time with these precious gifts. Date nights went away and really, time together went away.

Well, life passes by and they grow up. Along the way, life throws you unexpected trials that consume your every waking moment. Time is spent on your knees praying for your child to do well, to be successful as she moves away on her own. Time is spent praying your child will surrender, and be healed of the ugliness life has dealt her.

Time becomes spent in prayer, for your husband & his career, your marriage, your children and their life choices, for family, and for the beautiful friends God has placed in your life along the way.

And finally, time is spent again with my husband; date days and date nights. A real treasure getting to know each other again, spending that one on one time we knew so long ago. Time planning our trips to visit our oldest daughter in Dallas, travel to see family, and just travel.

Many gifts we hold in our hands, place on a shelf for display, or give away. But the gift of Time is one we can share and hold in our hearts forever.

May 2017 be a year where you allow yourself Time; time to be intentional, time to be restored, time to get to know your spouse again, time to pray, and time to get to know Your Heavenly Father more. After all, He is the giver of time.

With that, my word for 2017? "Time"

Blessings,

Chris Jones

Chris is a prayer warrior among our community. Her words feel like a prayer from her heart for all of us. 

If you're curious about or considering a word for the year of 2017, WU Coordinator Kristy Smith recommends reading this post by Margaret Feinberg with a FREE download to walk you through prayerful exercises and asking God what word He wants to awaken you to this year.

Worship in the Waiting

Just a few weeks ago a small group of us met to grab a warm drink, catch up, share what God's nudging us about and pray for each other. Repeatedly, music (all kinds) came up. How it provoked us, moved us, and comforted us. While we were together, I jotted some things down so I could continue to pray over them.

As I've been praying for them and pressing into this advent season what has stood out to me is the waiting. We're waiting for the arrival of Jesus on Christmas Day. We're waiting for God in numerous ways. Desperate for Him to speak, to guide, or answer. Anxious for healing, forgiveness, and redemption. Waiting for this season of  to end or begin. Clinging to God's promises awaiting us.

Seemingly, the thread of music connects us to our human condition in therapeutic ways. A song that speaks powerfully to two people  also seems to connect those two people in unspoken ways. I thought I'd share what I've been listening to recently, confident we'll make a connection or two. Connect us in this season of waiting.


Just before the holidays I stumbled upon the album Psalms by Sandra McCracken. It was about the time our church embarked on a time of pressing into prayer. I love this entire album, but most certainly the song "All Ye Refugees".

Christmas by Francesca Battistelli is another great album specifically for this season. I am partial to "You're Here", "Christmas Dreams", and "Go Tell it on the Mountain."

Then even though we've been listening to these songs during church services for years, just yesterday we were gifted with the ability to take them everywhere we go! Arrows by Nick and Julie Nave and handful of others from our very own Heartland worship team have produced a few of our favorite songs. It's my understanding that the cd will be available at Heartland on Sunday and a digital version on Friday. ALL 5 tracks are amazing! 

Hearts

Quiet My Soul

Empty Hands

Only You

Just As I Am

I hope you enjoy these and please share what you've been listening to with me via Facebook, Instagram, and email, or catch me in person! 

Blessings,

Nanette Haskin

At-Home Study: adapted from 'Advent: Born is The King' plan from She Reads Truth

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.

{Day 1} John 1:9-14

{Day 2} Isaiah 9:2-7

{Day 3} Philippians 2:9-11

Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

Among

To be with, surrounded by, in association with-together.

Like the playground ball with it's tether,
to be beside, locked in with.
To lock eyes with, eyes.
Coexisting with intention.

Always seasoned with salt and spoken full of grace,
let our conversation be

AMONG.

In association with, included and inclusive.
A walking church. Making space.
Vulnerability surrounds and relationship happens...
As it would, 'cause God moved into the neighborhood.

AMONG.

There is such beauty in the tapestry,
No matter how slowly woven.
Each strand playing a perfect part naturally.

We are broken, and we are busted, but His beloved--
Loved beyond compare.
Be aware,
The closer we are knit, the stronger we become.

Your kingdom come.

AMONG.

Blessings,
Angela Scalise

At-Home Study: adapted from 'Advent: Born is The King' plan from She Reads Truth

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.

{Day 1} Job 1:1-22

{Day 2} Ruth 2:1-12

{Day 3} 2 Samuel 7:1-17

{Day 4} Esther 5:1-8

{Day 5} Jonah 1:1-7

Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

Seasons

Holidays in a season of grief


Like many of you, I recently ordered our family Christmas cards. I had preselected a few layout options, had our family photos from a session this summer, and had my coupons to stack on Cyber Monday deals -- just like I do every year. But as I looked at our smiling faces in the photo above the simple message of holiday greeting, they felt hollow and false.

Those pictures of us were from an extended family photo shoot I had planned for the one-year anniversary of my father-in-law's death. I had encouraged/bullied my brothers and sisters-in-law to come to Kansas for a small reunion so we could join in support around my mother-in-law and process our emotions from the last year together. It made sense to me to push for this. Even though they would all still be hurting and our gathering would be tense from the obvious absence it would be okay because I would be there for everyone. I would be the strong one, I would be the clear-headed one who could smile, make a joke, and ease some heartache. This time together was what we all needed so that we could figure out what family looked like after their dad was gone. And if we happened to get a few quick snapshots -- by a professional -- of the grandkids with grandma and each sibling with his or her individual family plus one --or two -- of the whole group, well, it would be so natural who would even notice we were doing it?

Then my dad died, almost 11 months to the day after my father-in-law. And this well-planned photo session would now take place in the midst of my own fresh grief. I look at our faces in the photos and the normalcy of us makes me think I have the timing of things wrong. How could the people in these pictures have revisited the grave of one father and four weeks earlier buried the other father? I can't see any of the pain we felt in our relaxed smiles and easy poses. None of the turmoil, the tears, the sleepless nights are there with us in the photos. How is that possible? The most significant loss I have ever felt had just happened, but I look so...normal. There should have been no humanly way we could make smiles.


But we did. And while my grief has muddled my memory of the summer, I know there were moments when we did feel joy. I did crack a joke, my sisters-in-law did comment on how naturally and easily the photo session came together. So how do I capture all that in a holiday message that will look right in sparkling gold script?


For the second year in a row I have tried to pick the right phrase for the front of the card. To craft a short hopeful message on the back that would gracefully acknowledge our sadness and honor our lost loved one, while still allowing others to smile at the photo and then move on in the happiness of the season. It isn't as simple as you may think. This year my husband vetoed the phrases, "a hole that will never be filled," and "a heartache that may never end," as "a bit heavy for the medium" of Christmas card.


The message I settled on both years included thanks for our supportive friends and family. Last year I noted that our year was marked by deep sadness and yet deep joy. This year I wrote that we could remember this year as the hardest one, but instead we will choose to remember the year for all the love.


 John 16:33 says, "I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world." God doesn't want us to experience the brokenness of death and sadness. But we do and because that is our reality for now he did something amazing. He sent Jesus. He sent his son to overcome it all. So even in our sadness that is something to find joy in.



Blessings,
Meghan Hemenway

At-Home Study: adapted from 'Advent: Born is The King' plan from She Reads Truth

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.

{Day 1} Exodus 12:1-28

{Day 2} Exodus 17:1-7

{Day 3} Exodus 16:1-36

{Day 4} 2 Corinthians 8:9

{Day 5} Isaiah 9:6-7

Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

Choose Truth

I’m an emotional lady. I cry at church pretty much every Sunday, cry at songs on the radio and movies often, cry when I see other people crying…you get the picture. I’ve always been very sensitive and wear my heart on my sleeve. My now husband had to learn this early on in our relationship. Poor guy. I know that God made me this way, but these big emotions get me into trouble sometimes. They lead me astray. Let me explain.

It is very easy to go down the wrong path when I am driven by my feelings. If I am feeling hurt, then I might naturally want to be hurtful in return. If I’m feeling sad, then I might want to have a pity party for myself. Yet, as a believer in Jesus, this does not bring glory to Him. When I let my emotions rule, then I am stuck inside my own head and focused on me, not on Him, and not on those He has called me to love around me. 2 Corinthians 5:15 says ‘And He died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died and was raised again.’ What happens when I have a self-centered view instead of one focused on Jesus? I don’t love others well. I am too concerned with my own situation and feelings that I am not an encourager and servant to those around me. I’m too busy worrying about my inner struggles, that I don’t have time to love others the way God calls me to love them.

So what can I do to take my focus off of me and on to Jesus? I need to use God’s truth to replace my negative emotions. I recently heard Lysa Terkurst (Proverbs 31 ministries) say, ‘Lies flee in the presence of truth.’ I need to call to mind God’s promises to me and trust that what He says is true, no matter how I feel. I might feel lonely, but He says I am never alone even for one second. I might feel insignificant, but He says I am deeply loved and special. I might feel ugly, but He says I am a masterpiece and He looks at my heart. I might feel weak, but He says I can do anything through Him. I might feel insecure, but He says I find my identity in Him and am His daughter. I might not feel like forgiving someone, but He says I must forgive because He has forgiven me (many many times). The point is, many of my emotions can lead me away from God’s truth. I have to fight off the natural urge to let my emotions rule and tell myself ’Truth over emotions. Truth over emotions.’ This has become my mantra.

The bible says in Jeremiah 17:9, ’the heart is deceitful above all things.’ That means that my own heart, deceives me. That is scary to think about. Not to be a ‘Debbie Downer,’ but the popular phrase ‘follow your heart’ is actually not biblical. For those who put their hope in Christ, it should be ‘follow God’s truth and promises’ instead. This is a newer truth for me. I definitely lived by the ‘follow your heart’ philosophy of the world for probably the first 20+ years of my life, but it led me into poor decisions and sin and therefore consequences. Can you relate? Images of failed relationships come to mind for me, my heart feeling shattered to pieces. We have to learn to sift our feelings through the lens of God’s word. If our feelings do not gel with His truth or commands, then we have to ’take our thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ’ (2 Corinthians 10:5). This takes practice. This might mean praying immediately, calling a friend who keeps you accountable, memorizing verses to call to mind, etc. I can promise you that you CAN do this. God says so. You ‘can do all things through Christ who gives you strength’ (Philippians 4:13). You CAN take your thoughts captive and grab hold of God’s truth and refocus on the things that bring Him glory. I don’t do this perfectly, but the more I’ve practiced, the easier it has become to quickly switch my thinking. The more I choose to call to mind God’s loving truth and faithfulness regardless of how I feel, the easier it becomes to turn to Him instead of my emotions.

Ladies, we can CHOOSE. Each time we have an unhealthy thought, or a lie the enemy has placed in our heads, we can choose to dwell on it or squash it. We can choose to go down the ‘feelings road’ into self pity or anger or jealousy, etc. OR we can choose to grab hold of God’s perfect truth and the promises He speaks over our lives. I invite you to join me in choosing to not be a woman driven by the ups and downs of her emotions, but a woman who stands firm and steadfast on God’s truth. Jesus says ’the truth will set you free’ (John 8:32). Be free ladies, not a prisoner to your emotions. Be the strong woman of God He created you to be.

Love, 

Kristi Brooks

At-Home Study: adapted from 'Advent: Born is The King' plan from She Reads Truth

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.

{Day 1} Isaiah 9:6-7

{Day 2} Genesis 2:8-9

{Day 3} Genesis 4:1-16

{Day 4} Genesis 12:1-4

{Day 5} Genesis 14:17-24

Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

Why and How Should I Tell Others?

I read through the book of Revelation last year in a Bible study group. It was confusing, terrifying, and then opened up to such beauty and hope that my life felt different with this new understanding of the end of the story. I felt compelled to share, but conflicted because of the intense and graphic nature of this book of the Bible. How exactly do you let people know that you believe that the end of the world is coming with horrific beasts and monsters, but if they believe in Jesus there will be streets paved with gold?

God calls us to share his message because his mercy and love is for all his children and he wants us all to come back home. But sharing that message will look different and sound different for each of us.

My dad died suddenly and unexpectedly this summer. My family was together getting ready to celebrate the fourth of July at the family cabin. Instead of watching the fireworks display over the lake we buried the leader of my family: the oldest son, the big brother to five siblings, my one and only dad. Normal life stopped as we tried to make sense of this new reality. Who were we all now without him? How could any of us feel joy or see good in this world? It was in these times that I found verses from Revelation and other places in the Bible coming out of me as if it were my own words.

I sat on the couch with my uncle and told him that I didn't know exactly what heaven would be like, but I believed in it and I believed that Jesus has gone before us and prepared rooms for all of us in his father's home. (John 14: 1-4). I laid in bed next to my mom and told her that one day God would wipe every tear from our eyes as tears poured down our cheeks. (Revelation 21:4). I told my sons when they couldn't sleep that Papa was now in a place where there was never night or darkness or reason to fear because God is a glorious light that fills every corner. (Revelation 21:23-25). And I told my grandmother who had lost her husband a year and a half before losing her oldest son, that nothing could separate her from the love God has for her (Romans 8:38-39). I told her not to grow weary of doing good and not to doubt her faith, (Galatians 6:9). She has been our family's arrow to Jesus and even her terrible grief is not enough to make that change.

I could say these things because I knew they were true. I didn't have to search for words of comfort for those grieving all around me because the words - God's words - just came out of me. I had read, studied, prayed and when the unimaginable happened I had my heavenly father's comfort to offer to others. I didn't have to look for an opening to share God's truth - I had to speak as I watched His children grieve and question and cry out for answers.

As time has passed and the shock gave way to a different stage of grief, my resolve grew a little shaky, my hope a little dull, my urgency to share a little less important. My Lord felt distant and silent, but even then I had God's word to rely on. Like Aaron and Hur holding up Moses's arms when he grew weary I found support from others when I felt weak and alone. I saw that two are better than one because if one falls the other can help him up (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10) and I felt the Lord's presence near my broken heart through the kindness and understanding of others (Psalm 34:18).

Sharing God's word won't be the same for everyone. I know some are able to share their beliefs without the need of tragedy ripping open their hearts. For me, when my heart was torn open I found that what came pouring out was not only my sadness and grief, but my trust and faith in how much God loves us. That was too powerful for me to keep silent. As my heart heals, I may be a little less vocal, but that sharing has changed me. I pray that it changes you too.

Blessings,

Meghan Hemenway

At-Home Study

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.


{Day 1} Matthew 28:16-20

{Day 2} Matthew 5:13-16

{Day 3} 2 Corinthians 4:1-18

{Day 4} Acts 4:23-31

{Day 5} Mark 4:1-20


Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

How Can I Resist Evil?

The battle is constant. I feel exposed and vulnerable in so many ways. I practice many strategies, both offensive and defensive. I am aware that evil exists and I know his tactics. I ready myself with the full Armor of God. (Eph. 6:10-18)

But often I feel like all of my efforts aren't enough. I feel weak and weary in spite of putting all the things I've learned into practice. I'm clinging to it all desperately, but the attacks are still getting in and I don't seem to be recovering quickly.

Feeling alone and isolated by the weight of it all, the thought of sharing the load with someone else is both tempting and repulsive. You know you'd find relief if someone joined you, but you'd first need to expose yourself and your stuff, making you vulnerable in a real way to judgement and rejection. This time instead of hearing the voices say "you're not enough," you hear "you're too much." Too messy, too needy, and no one has the room/time/energy/desire to join you in this.

Who does that sound like?

The thief comes to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10 NIV

When these moments of desperation overcome the fear provoked by the idea of inviting someone else into my mess I seek out those who also practice these strategies. Someone who is also fighting for their relationship with Jesus, saturated in God's word, humble and kind, but bold with truth. 

This person helps me identify the lies and wounds, proclaims truth, and carries the weight of my burdens with me. 

For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I in the midst of them. 

Matthew 18:20 KJV

As in scripture when the four friends carry the paralyzed man to the house where Jesus is and lower him through the roof to be placed at the feet of Jesus, we can borrow strength and faith from those God has placed around us. We can lend it to those around us when we find them "paralyzed". 

What is your plan? How do you resist evil? 

This analogy just came to me. I'm writing this on a computer. The program often automatically saves my work. The computer has a program that guards against viruses. I get a warning when the battery is running low. I will upload this post via an internet connection through a router and a firewall. The blog host will save it to a server and that company has protocols that include routine backup saves and likely a disaster recovery plan in the event that their home office location gets destroyed. They have a known secondary location, key employees know where it is and what to do to get them up and functioning again as quickly as possible.  

If this is how a company plans, prepares, and practices for influence and events that could move against them, how much more should we plan, prepare, and practice the strategies laid out for us by God to do the same?

Blessings,

Nanette Haskin

At-Home Study

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.


{Day 1} 1Peter 5:6-11

{Day 2} Genesis 3:1-7

{Day 3} James 4:1-10

{Day 4} Romans 6:5-14

{Day 5} Ephesians 6:10-18



Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

How Does God Guide Us?

I didn't have a volunteer to write this week's blog. Certainly, God has guided me and I could offer my own story. My mind began organizing my thoughts to do just that. But when I sat down to type out those words I thought of all the stories I heard from so many. Actually, many stories were repeated, the details just a little different.

Then this thought popped in my head, "give those stories a voice." I haven't asked anyone's permission, but I feel like these stories are so prevalent that they could belong to anyone and everyone.

Scripture: Sometimes it just POPS off the page. Sometimes it leads me to thinking about something I wouldn't have otherwise been led to think about. Sometimes a verse "randomly" crosses my path in unexpected or unplanned places that fit the state of my heart or circumstances perfectly.

The Holy Spirit: Sometimes a thought, idea, or feeling comes to me that is quite different than what I had been thinking or feeling. Sometimes I feel like I'm supposed to do or say something that seems random and unlike me, specifically to encourage, help or build up someone else. Sometimes I hear a song that fits the state of my heart or circumstances perfectly.

Wise Counsel: Sometimes someone randomly shares or speaks scripture or an encouraging and helpful word. Sometimes processing with someone who is also trying to follow Jesus provides perspective.

Circumstances: Sometimes the way seems to be prepared for me. Sometimes the way seems to be blocked. Sometimes when experiencing difficulty or in a long season of waiting I've been put in places where I'm prompted to remember all God has already done for me.


We can be confident God is always guiding us.

The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you." Psalm 32:8 

God's guidance will always:

• be in line with the Bible
• be loving
• be strengthening, encouraging and comforting
• bring the peace of God

Currently, this song seems to speak to me.





Blessings,
Nanette Haskin

At-Home Study

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.


{Day 1} John 10:1-18

{Day 2} Acts 12:6-17

{Day 3} Acts 16:6-10

{Day 4} John 14:15-31

{Day 5} Acts 2:1-47



Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?

Why & How Should I Read The Bible

It was June of 2010. I was a brand new mommy to my son Quinn. He was colicky. Breastfeeding was a disaster, but I was determined to keep trying. He did not sleep. The truth about this period of my life is that I was miserable. My dreams and lofty expectations of a sweet and warm transition to a family of 3 were totally shattered. I remember feeling resentment towards the moms around me…the ones who had newborns that slept and didn’t have a ‘difficult temperament’ as the doctor observed about my son. I felt resentment towards my husband as he left for work each morning while I looked at the day ahead with an honest ‘how AM I going to make it?’ I was deep into a place of self-pity and asking God, why?? I thought I was going to be a wonderful mommy. I had read all the books, I had babysat many children in my life, I had taken all the classes, I had known I wanted to be a mommy my whole life! But here I was, a very tired, stressed mommy who thought her baby hated her, and I wasn’t doing this well. It was one of the darkest times in my life. 

Then, when my son was 4 months old, God broke in and told me to get to work. My amazing mother in law offered to take me through a bible study, and I said yes. A very intense, women’s study specifically about suffering, where I would memorize a new passage of scripture every week for 15 weeks. Now, before all this, I would have told you that I was a strong believer in Jesus. It wasn’t until this difficult period of motherhood that I learned how shallow my faith really had been. This was when I fell in love with God’s word, and it changed me forever. I was in His word, meditating on it, every single day for 15 weeks. 

The first verse I memorized was ‘I delight in your decrees; I will not neglect your word’ (Psalm 119:16). 

Through this period of time, I learned to truly ‘delight’ in the life-giving laws and words of God. I learned to make His words my own. I could see that His promises in the Bible were actually for me.

 I would go into my son’s room in those dark hours of the night repeating scripture to myself such as ‘God is my refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore, I will not fear’ (Psalm 46:1,2).

 I would use the countless night wakings to review the verses in my head, solidifying their place in my heart. God helped me to persevere through this rough season. I understood His sovereignty in a new way. I understood that He had me in this hard time for a purpose; He could have taken it away, but He didn’t. 

I called to mind that ‘in all things God works for the good of those who love Him’ (Romans 8:28) and that I was given a challenging baby for my ultimate good (even though I couldn’t see it at the time).

 I worked hard to reprogram my old tendencies towards self-pity to trusting that God was weaving all of these experiences into a grander plan for my life, beyond my dreams of having a happy baby. His words were truly a light that broke into my darkness, my blindness.

Now, I can’t say that motherhood was a breeze from then on. After all, difficult babies sometimes grow up to also be difficult children. I have made many mistakes, and there have been many times that I’ve chosen to trust my own understanding, instead of God’s beautiful redemptive plan for my life. But I can say that I will always have His words hidden in my heart. I can call them to mind no matter where I am or what I am doing. When I am sleepless at 4am, when someone has hurt me deeply, when a friend needs encouragement, or when I am looking out at an incredible sunset that He has made. They are there in my heart. They give me life. If you’ve never given scripture memory a chance, I strongly encourage you to try it.

 If you haven’t read the Bible, there is no time like the present. You will not regret it. It will cut you to the core in the most tender of ways. It will change you. That’s what it was designed to do. 

‘For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart’ (Hebrews 4:12).

Blessings,

Kristi Brooks

At-Home Study

Pray: ask God to reveal Himself to you through the scriptures, to help you receive the message He has specifically for you today.

Read: each passage twice in 2-3 different translations.


{Day 1} 2 Timothy 3:10-17

{Day 2} Proverbs 4:20-23

{Day 3} Matthew 7:24-29

{Day 4} John 15:1-11

{Day 5} James 1:19-25



Observe: What is happening? What catches your attention? What is the message of this passage?What thoughts or feelings does it provoke?

Reflect: Why do these things catch your attention? Why do you feel or think certain things from reading it?

Apply: What does this say about God? What does it say about people? What does it say about God's plan for us? What does this mean for you? How can you apply what God is saying to you?